It would be wise not to think of a dream as nothing - -
Literally, is a figment of imagination spawn from
my utterly too-good-to-be-true brain functioning when it is not needed.
spare me a restful night of sleep is what it is
but then again, you came into it/
HB - came into my dream, crying - knowing the things that
I know, was he really crying at that time of the night?
Wouldn't know but some part of his emotions came to me
at 3ish- in the morning to let me know what?!
Perhaps, the 'hurt' part of it is, that SJ and I had so much things going on
for the three years that I was at GSAPS and he as more than a graceful
Knowing who he is, is a kind person who was always nice despite his
antics and speeches, perhaps if he had been taller than I -
like in the dreams where I commented and he laughed and for the first time,
hurt me back (when he usually didn't). He was 6'1' and amazingly beautiful.
The question is, should I contact him? or what!
There were times when I - the person in the dream I - know what it is
just a dream but this time around, I was fully engulfed in the land of
distorted memories and wish-it-could-be lalaland.
And in that, I was in love with him or perhaps just jealous of
an opportunity that I never had with him. Just cause.